He has no independence, no future, he's now becoming insecure, it's so hard to watch my big strong independent husband become a shadow of his former self. Over the years  his physical disabilities have plateaued, his balance is still not 100%, no use of his left arm, limited use of his left leg, he is legally blind and he's lost a lot of hearing. The psychological effects are the worst. As I can no longer work because I have to be here to help him all the time, we are living on government pensions which only tide you over. He has a lot of other medical issues now, kidney disease, diabetes, recurrent ear infections and the list goes on. Not to mention depression. This has  affected our lives in so many ways, we have lost friends, we are  more like mother and child than husband and wife now. I have to wash him, dress him, toilet him, cut up his food, get him in and out of bed, take him to  appointments etc etc, as well as try to be a good mother to our sons, keep up with the housework, shopping, cooking, cleaning, washing, and the list goes on. I have to deal with everything by myself, financial issues, house repairs, kids , everything!
Some days it's ok but other days are dark. I still worry about the future, we used to dream about traveling, days at the beach, snorkeling, we were going to take up photography, those dreams are gone. Now in between my many chores I'm trying to re educate myself through oten because as we are aging, his health is deteriorating and I'm worried if something happens to him, I'll have to go back to work and I want to be ready, or maybe even I might be able to work from home and supplement our pensions. Here's hoping!
But for now we still have each other, our beautiful sons and now 2 grandsons, and we still have love, even though some days there's a fine line between love and hate, ha ha!!